PRaP 6-20-2005

"BLAH"

Have you ever had one of those days? You know, one of those days. The one
where you just don't feel it. One of those days that everything you do
just doesn't quite feel right. You have a report due and it is a highly
public report and you just don't think what you said was right or would
have the impact you want it to have. Or one of those days that you just
feel BLAH. I really don't like those days because I feel far away from
God. I try and seek His presence in everything I do and when I have one of
those days I just don't feel Him with me is what I call a BLAH day.
Everything that comes out of my mouth returns to my ears sounding like blah
blah blah blah blah blah blah. Then I start to pray and it sounds the
same. Or I try and listen to someone and all I hear is blah blah blah. A
lot of you call that Monday. But it can hit at any time. When I have a
blah day like that I have to stay in prayer. I have to find a way to get
Daddy back with me so I can function. I need to find what it was that I
did to turn Him off and how to prevent it from happening again. So I start
asking Him to show me what it was I did and He shows me but sometimes not
immediately but when He is ready. But He always shows me where I need to
repent or where I need growth and how to prevent it from happening again.
My most recent BLAH was because of some stuff that I said to the boys when
they were arguing and fighting with each other. Instead of clearing it up
and showing them how to fix the issue they were having, I yelled at them
and said some not so nice things to them. Well Daddy asked me these
questions, and I quote, "What if I talked to you that way?, What if I
treated you with anger? What if I took away your privileges like that just
because you made a mistake?". Well looks like knee time and asking my
children forgiveness time and then I think I may have to eat at MC Donalds.
YUCK but what I did was wrong and I must repent and make restitution. Once
I see the error I have made the BLAH's go away and I am able to regain
focus on what God's plan is for me and I am able to move forward again.
God will never leave us or forsake us it is our own sin that causes Him to
step back a little bit and make us take a look in the mirror to see what we
are doing. Being able to do this shows that we have a strong foundation.
Our house is built upon the rock and not the sand.

PRaP Luke 6:46-49